Chrissy Teigen opened up in a powerful essay published by Medium to talk about exactly how she is feeling after losing her baby with John Legend. She previously announced the sad news on social media with photographs of the moments they shared as she said goodbye.
Chrissy Teigen Opened Up About Pregnancy Loss In Emotional Essay
Chrissy started off the essay by thanking everyone for sending notes and gifts and said that it brought tears to her eyes. The mom of two also further explained what happened during the emotional night with her baby that the couple named Jack.
“I would have an epidural and be induced to deliver our 20 week old, a boy that would have never survived in my belly (please excuse these simple terms)” she explained. “I was previously on bed rest for over a month, just trying to get the little dude to 28 weeks, a ‘safer’ zone for the fetus. My doctors diagnosed me with partial placenta abruption. I had always had placenta problems. I had to deliver Miles a month early because his stomach wasn’t getting enough food from my placenta. But this was my first abruption.”
Chrissy continuously bled and the fluid around Jack was very low. Ultimately, she knew she was going to lose the baby but that did not make her pain emotionally and physically be any less. “I cried a little at first, then went into full-blown convulsions of snot and tears, my breath not able to catch up with my own incredibly deep sadness,” the cookbook author wrote. “Even as I write this now, I can feel the pain all over again. Oxygen was placed over my nose and mouth, and that was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness.”
Chrissy Explained The Photos They Took The Night They Lost Jack
On September 30, Chrissy posted a photoset cradling Jack and crying. John who is currently coaching season 19 of The Voice and her mother also had their time with him which was documented in photos. While there have been some people that have criticized Chrissy for posting the photos, she simply does not care.
“I had asked my mom and John to take pictures, no matter how uncomfortable it was” Chrissy continued. John was not such a fan of taking photos but he complied. “But I knew I needed to know of this moment forever, the same way I needed to remember us kissing at the end of the aisle, the same way I needed to remember our tears of joy after Luna and Miles. And I absolutely knew I needed to share this story.”
“I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos” she admitted. “How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.”
The photos posted on Chrissy’s Instagram account have over 11.4 million likes and the comments are flooded with condolences and support for the couple as they navigate their way through this difficult time.